Kickin' The Habit

I've decided to kick the habit. I have to. I am so tired of feeling dependent upon any substance. I hate having to grab for it first thing in the morning...before I go out....before I go to bed. I hate panicking if I don't have any. I hate spending the money. I hate that I am so addicted that it doesn't even work for me any more. This has been going on for years and years and it has to stop.

My name is Kathy and I am am a lip balmaholic!

I can't even tell you how awful my addiction is. I have three of them in my purse right now and three more in the drawer at home. I keep them in my pockets, on my bedside table, in my car, at work...wherever I am....they are!

I can't tell you how many tubes have gone through the dryer....along with my clothes. Not a pretty sight.

I know I am not alone. Two of my children are addicted too....it must be some mutant gene that runs in our family or something like that.

It use to be Chapstick, then it was some Eco Lips, then it was Burt's Bees and now it's back to Chapstick. Why? Because none of them work anymore!!

I am 58 freakin' years old and this week I look like one of those little kids that constantly lick their lips until they are so red around their whole mouth that they look like little clowns! That is me this week. I'm not kidding you!

I will never be able to quit cold turkey. I would hyperventilate and keel over if my lips felt dry and I didn't have a lip balm, so I am trying to wean myself off gradually.

I did pretty good yesterday, but the lip balm still won. I can't even tell you how many times I applied it to my red, dry chapped lips. I will try to do better today. I'm going to start counting how many times I "use" in one day. Then I can challenge myself to do better the next day.

My lips are so dry right now that I want nothing more than to smear them with that ooey gooey waxy petroleum. Please tell me that one of you....just one of you out there understands.

:)