Saturday, July 25, 2009

Off the Wagon AGAIN

Okay, so I fell of the wagon AGAIN! I cannot stop eating crappy food. I know how bad it is for me. I know how many calories it all has in it. I know the fat content of what I eat. I know it's clogging my arteries. I know it's going to make me gain weight. I know. I know. I know!

But I can't seem to stop. I am out of control.

I have had a chai latte from Starbucks 10 times in the past 2 weeks. Not only is that a lot of calories I don't need, at $3.22 each, that is way too much money to be spending on junk food!

Every Friday, in fact last week it was Thursday AND Friday, and this week it was Friday AND today......it's an egg and cheese croissant from Dunkin' Donuts.

Last night it was a mushroom swiss black bean burger from Chilis and of course I had to get the Paradise Pie for dessert. That Paradise Pie is on the top ten list of the worst things you can eat. Doesn't it look just awesome though....and you should taste it...oh my word!!!!


What on earth is up? I never use to eat like this. I am just craving crap food right now, and have been for quite a while. This just isn't me and it isn't who I want to be.

So, here it is. I need to make a change....and I plan to start on Monday. No point in trying to start today. I still have 1/2 of my Paradise Pie left to eat, and I know I will eat it, and then tomorrow we are going to Michael and Bern's for the afternoon. I know I will eat whatever is put in front of me. Monday will be better. It's just me and the food with no outside influences....sort of.

I am going to try to go cold turkey with the chai lattes. I think that is the only way. To cut down won't help because I live for that chai every morning. If I have it one day....I will have it every day...guaranteed.

I will only bring good food to work...and that isn't hard to do and I usually do that. It's the cake and cookies and crap that other people bring to "share" that I can't keep my hands off of. I will try.

The weekends are sheer hell. I just eat whatever looks good and that has to stop. So, it will.

I am walking the dog one mile every morning...it's hard to do that at 5:30 a.m., but I can do it, and I said I was going to start doing my yoga and pilates after work. I really have to do that, but it is so darn hard to use that precious time for that when I have a million other things to do.

I once followed this awesome plan where you ate good all week and then you had one day where you could seriously eat anything you wanted. It was great and I did so well on it. I might give that a try again rather than deprive myself of every nasty food I love. The funny thing is that when that eat whatever you want day rolls around, you can only eat so much crap without feeling sick so you really don't eat all that much!

So, how do you do it? Do you eat good and exercise? Are you motivated? Do you stick with it or do you start and quit over and over and over again like I do? I am open to any and all suggestions......help?

8 comments:

Beth Anderson said...

I try to keep myself in a routine of eating, especially during the week. It was easy when I was working and I'm struggling a little now that I don't have a job.
Anyway, during the week I would always eat cereal for breakfast, bring a salad for lunch (with some type of cheese or cottage cheese for protein or chicken pieces) and low fat dressing, and eat carefully at dinner (no 2nds or huge portions). No snacking either! I found it allowed me some freedom on the weekends to splurge a little if I stuck to a good routine during the week. That's my plan which works for me.
Good luck.

T.Allen-Mercado said...

I fast twice a year and it really helps to reacquaint my body with a need for nutrition versus just taste good food. I look at it like a clean kitchen you know how hard it is to just throw a dish in the sink after the kitchen is clean...well that's what I do to my body. That, and I have a raw day once a month. As for exercise and yoga...I'm a bad yogi, but in keeping with the principles of the practice...it is a practice, so I'm not too hard on myself when I slack.

Catherine said...

I have had the same problem and I have to watch my cholesterol with diet because I can`t take the meds. If I stay off white flour I drop a lot of weight. If the food isn`t good for me I don`t bring it in the house. No red meat. Etc. I have gone off the wagon just like you a time or two and I get back on though that is hard sometimes.

Don`t get mad at yourself. It just makes you miserable. Make a change at one meal or forgo that one snack. I know it is hard.

Sometimes it gets boring, but I lost 15 pounds in three weeks and kept it off. Another trick that works for me, if I want a snack I ask myself if I`m hungry, then I grab a glass of water. Usually I`m not hungry.

Be easier on yourself and good luck.

Joanna Jenkins said...

yesterday while driving through McDonald's for the second time in the day, I notice, directly across from the drive through cashier window a HUGE, new sign that said...

LOSE 20 POUNDS IN 20 DAYS - FIND OUT HOW! with the phone number. I'm guessing the first step to losing the weight would be to stop reading that sign :-)

I have no idea how to "stick" to a diet :-(

Lanyardlady said...

I don't own a wagon.

Tins and Treasures said...

Kathy, I find it harder now too, when I don't have children at home to make good nutritious meals for. Hubby will suggest going out after work...well, then, you know what the choices are...fat and sodium!! We are planning to cook at home more this school year.
Anyway, perhaps just keeping each other accountable through the blogs will help...
Hope you are having a good weekend. ~Natalie

aliceinparis said...

It is so hard!!!
I've read that it is what you do 80% of the time that counts. So eating well all week and taking a day for junk might be the way to go.
Here's a great statement to tape on your fridge.

"Am I really hungry or do I just want to change the way I feel?"

Read it and then act accordingly.I have the same struggles.

Angela said...

Getting started is always the hardest part. Once you start, it gets easier. Good luck.

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