Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Who Are You?

If we are forever growing and changing...do we ever become the person we are meant to be? I feel like I am a combination of a caterpillar and a cat. Caterpillars go through metamorphosis, and I feel like I've done that at least as many times as a cat has lives! Does that make any sense at all?

When I was little, I was outgoing and friendly. I had no problem talking to anyone.

In Junior High, I was still pretty comfortable with myself. Then in high school I started to feel just a little inferior to the beautiful people and the true leaders. So, I became a bit quiet and shy around certain people.

Once I was out of high school I changed again and excelled in my career, but still said "no thanks" when offered management opportunities. That wasn't who I was at that moment.

I married and had children and changed yet again into the "defender" and the "helper" and the "keeper of the children". I wasn't afraid to defend my stance on any subject. My children became life itself.

The kids grew up and I reverted back to the quiet and shy girl for a while. I wasn't quite sure who I was now or who I wanted to be with my children not "needing" me like before.

Then I slowly went through metamorphosis yet again and became the person I am today. I am quiet when I need to be quiet and outspoken when I see fit. I like myself now more than I ever have, and I think that is fulfilling in itself.

I am not fearful of change. I don't reject change. I welcome it with open arms.

I am in butterfly mode right now, but as time goes by....who knows, I just might go back to being a caterpillar and see what emerges. Life is such an adventure!

5 comments:

Angela said...

Guess what? You ARE one of the beautiful people.

Kathy said...

Oh you are just so sweet. :)

A Cuban In London said...

I think that we all go through phases and it is good to stop sometimes, rebalance, rethink and carry on. Good post.

Greetings from London.

Lanyardlady said...

We are always growing and always re-finding ourselves. You seem to have it so together - talent and creativity, great family, admirable values, a good sense of humor and deep self-awareness. Like Angela said, you are beautiful people inside and out.

solomi558 said...

I like this post, makes me feel thoughtful--cottonreel

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